I always found it very ironic that my blog is titled “The Love Life of an Asian Guy” when in reality, 90% of the content has nothing to do with my own love life, but rather, the love life I wish I had.
Some of you might be wondering “Where the hell did Ranier go? Is he dead? Did he quit blogging? Has he blogged his last blog, dislocating every finger rendering him incapable of writing a single sentence?” In a word: no. None of that is true. But remember when I said I used to blog about the love life I wish I had? Well guess what?
I finally have it.
When I was single, I would fantasize about the type of woman I would one day marry, imagining the personality, the voice, the face, and the heart that she might have. Would she be intelligent? Funny? Loving? I used to create these “imaginary women” in my mind as a way to stave off my loneliness. And after years of praying, waiting, and hoping, I’ve finally met the perfect woman.
But you know what the funny thing is? The interesting part about this story is that I never in a million years thought I would find someone THIS complete. This woman has everything I could ever want, including an endless supply of traits that go above and beyond what I expected. She takes whatever standard I used to have, and she shatters them into a million little pieces.
So, in case you are wondering, no, I’m not dead. I’ve actually been enjoying my time with miss perfect. Think of this as my “honeymoon” away from blogging.
Now, here’s the thing: I’ve written about the girls I’ve been with in the past – no problem. Writing about them was quite easy since (obviously) it didn’t work out. I can write a good heartbreak story, but a story about me finding real love? That’s difficult! So another reason for my delay is that I’m just damn scared! I feel very pressured to write the most amazing piece of bloggery in order to accurately represent the girl I’m with. I feel like a master sculptor looking at a giant slab of marble, wondering where to chisel first.
Blogging is a lot harder than it looks -_-
Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to slip into cuddle mode so Miss Perfect and I can get some rest.
Oh, and one more thing…
My beautiful Girlfriend’s name is Olivia 🙂
Stay tuned for my next blog entry which will be about Olivia and I: how we met, who she is, and why I would never want to be with anyone else.